unlearned
09-29-2006, 01:37 AM
Hello , people.
I dont know if there is anyone here who has not transitioned yet...I am just taking Evansence and Feminol...i dont think they are working well!
anyways...i am quite ambigious about transitionning, i am wondering if you guys have any advice or feel the same way?
I think I genuinely do want to look like a girl but gender diversity is such a huge continuum, I really have to find a space where I am comfortable with myself. That’s the only way I will get better. But I don’t feel that I can find the space where I am comfortable with myself if I am constantly thinking how people will see me. However, does being myself means changing my body. Would changing my body be something I would be doing to please the society? I do not think so entirely. I think there is an element of wanting to be more girly so I could fit in, but another element is that I think the hormones that will be taken will allow me to feel more girly and express myself. It’s hard to feel girly when you are constantly having an erection. At the same time, do I need to take hormones, would that be too drastic a move, that the cost would out weight the benefits? I think the best choice is to live with what you have but …I feel that I need to change because I think it’s too hard to live in a male body, psychologically and emotionally and physically. I am displeased with how much I don’t look like a girl even though I feel like one.
I dont know if there is anyone here who has not transitioned yet...I am just taking Evansence and Feminol...i dont think they are working well!
anyways...i am quite ambigious about transitionning, i am wondering if you guys have any advice or feel the same way?
I think I genuinely do want to look like a girl but gender diversity is such a huge continuum, I really have to find a space where I am comfortable with myself. That’s the only way I will get better. But I don’t feel that I can find the space where I am comfortable with myself if I am constantly thinking how people will see me. However, does being myself means changing my body. Would changing my body be something I would be doing to please the society? I do not think so entirely. I think there is an element of wanting to be more girly so I could fit in, but another element is that I think the hormones that will be taken will allow me to feel more girly and express myself. It’s hard to feel girly when you are constantly having an erection. At the same time, do I need to take hormones, would that be too drastic a move, that the cost would out weight the benefits? I think the best choice is to live with what you have but …I feel that I need to change because I think it’s too hard to live in a male body, psychologically and emotionally and physically. I am displeased with how much I don’t look like a girl even though I feel like one.